I keep coming back to the blog here and rereading over the last post. It showed my true feelings at the time, but a very negative and down side. I want this blog to be a place to express the highs and the lows. It seems that many times I get caught up in writing about the lows, but forget all about writing about the highs. So this entry is going to focus only on the highs.
Lately I've been extremely busy with church activities, planning a baby shower, and spending time with family. It seems that 2008 has been nothing but a blur so far. At times I'm just living for the next thrill of the unexpected. I think I'm sorta of liking where this is all heading.
On Friday I'm throwing a baby shower for RL's cousin. This will be her first baby and the first baby shower I've ever thrown. I'm excited to see what everything looks like all put together. I'm hoping and praying that she receives a lot of good gifts and has a fun night out. I'm making dinner that night and will unveil the big homemade cake that I made (and decorated !). I find great joy in trying to make others happy. I've always loved giving gifts to people and seeing their expressions. I hope that the whole night leaves a positive, lasting impression on our family. We could all use a little happiness.
Another great day of celebration this week is Thursday. Thursday marks RL and I's 10th anniversary of being together. I look forward to a fancy dressed up night of food and live jazz at a local restaurant. I'm thrilled to go to a restaurant that requires reservations. It's been so long since we've gotten a chance to do this. We're leaving all the communications outside the restaurant and are just going to enjoy each other that night. I can't wait ! It's so amazing to think back to where we both were 10 years ago. We were both in high school; his senior year, my junior year. The bell had just rang to release us to go back to class after lunch. He pulled me aside and asked me to sit back down. Very nervously he asked me if I still had feelings for him. I (most excitedly) replied, "Umm yes." And then he said, "Well I like you a lot......(brief silence) Would you like to be my girlfriend?" Of course I said yes and then practically floated out of the lunchroom. I don't remember anything about going back to class that day. I'm sure I was late for the next class, because after 6 years of waiting for him he'd finally asked me out. I was the happiest girl on earth that day. I knew at that moment sitting there with him that life would never be the same again. I didn't know how it would be different or even if we'd be together forever, but I knew I was in for a great adventure.
I'm still on that adventure and I wouldn't have it any other way. So many things have happened in these 10 years, both great and tragic, but I'm so thankful to God that He's allowed me to go through it all with the love of my life. I couldn't ask for a better partner to walk through life with. RL completes me in everyway. My love and respect for him grows daily.