Sometimes we all need to take the time to do a reality check on ourselves. Today I decided to go to the library for a while so I could focus on preparing for my class that starts on Sunday. I was sitting there getting out my laptop, notebook and Bible when it really hit me. I'm getting to do exactly what I wanted to do. Yes you read that right, something is actually perfect in my life just the way I had always hoped it would be.
Let me elaborate here. You see I've always wanted nothing more than to be in full time ministry. I've never really cared about working a secular job, because I never had the true desire for money. Sure I know that we all need money to survive in life and I know that I do look for ways to earn little bits here and there on the side, but it's not my focus or ultimate goal in life. I've always had my heart set on staying at home, taking care of my family and doing God's work.
And I'm doing that right now!
Oh the joy that flooded through my soul when I realized that God had this in the plan all along. I've had days where I've literally mopped around the house feeling sorry for myself; times spent missing the past and my 'status' in the world. But all along God was preparing me and teaching me how to live out the life He had planned for me.
While it's not the exact picture of ministry I had planned, it's still ministry. Maybe God is testing me with this small thing so He can make sure I can handle the bigger things. Or maybe this is MY big thing. Maybe God is simply showing me His plan, no matter how different it is from my plan.
I am so excited to begin teaching this new class. It will be the first women's Sunday school class that I've ever done. I'll be teaching this group for the next three months. We are going to be using the Beth Moore study called Stepping Up. In preparing for the class I've been so blessed. This study is excellent. I encourage each of you to find a study in your area if possible or do the study on your own. The videos can be downloaded online for $5 each and are well worth the investment. I about shouted just listening to the Introduction video. They are seriously that good.
Thank you Father for a renewed sense of joy and zeal. It is my prayer that Your passion will be contagious and others will catch it. Use me Lord, this simple body of clay, to be a vessel that proclaims truth and gives glory and honor only unto You.